ambiguity of sorts..

baffled..

2012-02-13T10:12:00.002+05:30

The way things change..

acquiescent..

2012-02-08T09:59:00.000+05:30

It is funny to realise how malleable one can be,
You just need that slight pressure and you change like you never knew how it was before..

ignore..

2012-02-01T10:39:00.001+05:30

Taken for granted..

termination..

2012-01-25T13:21:00.002+05:30

The thought of ending it has crossed her mind more than once,
And later she just might resort to it.

The option still remains..

answer..

2012-01-18T10:19:00.000+05:30

Evolving is the key..

demand..

2012-01-11T12:21:00.001+05:30

Love being loved..

cheery..

2012-01-04T11:53:00.002+05:30

When you are happy and you know it,calp your hands..
Clap clap clap..

precise..

2011-12-28T15:26:00.002+05:30

Life's like that.
It gives you exactly what you want, not more nor less..

eventually..

2011-12-21T23:05:00.002+05:30

Ultimately we all want that one person who’s world revolves around us..

soothing..

2011-12-16T11:41:00.001+05:30

The warmth of winters envelopes her..

lie..

2011-12-07T16:16:00.002+05:30

And then she finally lost one of the most sacred things that was actually never hers..

alluring..

2011-11-30T11:31:00.003+05:30

She cannot say that she has the best of tastes,
But its enthtralling to be able to appreciate art and fashion..

surpass..

2011-11-09T12:04:00.004+05:30

Delighted to be capable of such time pass..
.. But obviously not without anything at stake.

reckless..

2011-11-02T10:23:00.000+05:30

Beyond caring..

this..

2011-10-19T10:27:00.004+05:30

You do not know what you have missed till you experience it..

sated..

2011-10-12T12:54:00.000+05:30

She feels funnily fearless, like it is all going to be alright..

enough..

2011-10-05T10:08:00.000+05:30

Peace please..

anguish..

2011-09-28T11:21:00.001+05:30

Hurt though she is, she wonders if it is worth risking it..

admonish..

2011-09-14T09:41:00.001+05:30

You see/ read something and you get so inspired and awed.
And then suddenly you begin to lose interest; you fail to see the magic you saw earlier. You begin to wonder what it was that you saw in it that drew you to it.

And you hate yourself for doing this to the piece/ picture, and more so because the injustice you did to it. You took what you wanted from it, when you needed it and then left it like it meant nothing.

It seems so unfair and yet you cannot fake it, you have to let go when you have to..

fury..

2011-09-07T11:51:00.002+05:30

Even anger can take you places..

please..

2011-08-31T13:45:00.000+05:30

Hoping that it will work itself out..

partial..

2011-08-17T11:58:00.001+05:30

Some things are better left incomplete..

susceptible..

2011-08-12T09:48:00.001+05:30

At times, even incomplete things make more sense than perfect ones..

hollow..

2011-08-03T14:40:00.000+05:30

It is getting more meaningless by the day and worse by the night..
You just go through the motions to complete the cycle and bring things to a closure.

trouble..

2011-07-27T17:06:00.002+05:30

"Heaven forbid, you end up alone."
A phrase that haunts her right now..

enlightened..

2011-07-25T12:01:00.000+05:30

At times, all you need to do is sit in the darkness to see light..

content..

2011-07-20T13:51:00.000+05:30

Sometimes all it takes is a text to make your day..

something..

2011-07-18T16:00:00.000+05:30

Nothing like anything..

connection..

2011-07-13T15:55:00.001+05:30

She doesn't know how he just gets it..

happiness..

2011-07-06T10:50:00.001+05:30

Apple of her eye, her muse he is..

need..

2011-06-01T11:14:00.001+05:30

The necessity of change is much recognised,
An organisation of life becomes compulsive..

lost..

2011-05-23T16:12:00.000+05:30

She just doesn't know how it works anymore..

mundane..

2011-05-18T13:13:00.000+05:30

So she tries to clean up all she can..

plea..

2011-05-06T10:38:00.000+05:30

And she asks for more and then some..

simplicity..

2011-05-02T15:29:00.002+05:30

Simple and sweet, that's how life was to be..

me..

2011-04-27T18:47:00.000+05:30

Stupid stupid me..

oblivion..

2011-04-08T15:34:00.001+05:30

And then she wished the world would end.
Just like that..

sinister..

2011-03-30T10:23:00.000+05:30

It gets creepier as it gets closer..

light..

2011-03-09T10:28:00.001+05:30

How changes can be so sudden..

smile..

2011-02-14T23:51:00.001+05:30

How little things mean so much..

singular..

2011-02-02T12:16:00.000+05:30

A difficult one, but it has to be taken..

sting..

2011-01-05T12:43:00.001+05:30

It is surprising how that didn't hurt at all, rather a welcome feeling..

slip..

2010-12-20T11:09:00.001+05:30

It has always about keeping it simple and then it just slips off..

shit..

2010-12-08T13:08:00.001+05:30

She feels disgustingly obsessed..

saved..

2010-11-24T11:30:00.002+05:30

The dream almost shattered, destiny intervened..

reality..

2010-10-27T12:31:00.001+05:30

And her worst fears suddenly came true..

choice..

2010-05-23T13:02:00.001+05:30

Its difficult to chose between the mind and heart when they are saying rather opposite things..

dead..

2010-05-02T17:43:00.001+05:30

It seems that something inside her that had the ability to love selflessly, without pride or ego has died and she misses it terribly..

positive..

2010-01-06T23:01:00.000+05:30

She can see just a glimmer of hope
And wish that it stays..

pretense..

2009-12-14T10:58:00.002+05:30

The facade called life..

tranquility..

2009-11-23T12:41:00.000+05:30

Blissfully detached.

compulsion..

2009-10-26T12:22:00.001+05:30

Such is life..

amusing..

2009-10-21T14:00:00.000+05:30

She suddenly could not remember the meaning of "ambiguity"..
Strange.

usual..

2009-10-16T10:58:00.001+05:30

She is scared, it might not turn out to be all that she's expecting: like always.

funny..

2009-10-12T10:53:00.004+05:30

Growing up is strange, you get to listen to all the problems and find solutions and then be happy because you feel needed and its strange..
She's rather do math..

shell..

2009-09-14T10:49:00.001+05:30

It was blissful being cocooned..

epitaph..

2009-09-04T21:29:00.001+05:30

Her tombstone would/ should read: "She lived till she was happy."

merge..

2009-08-26T10:14:00.002+05:30

Some things are meant to be, as if you've groomed yourself for this time all your life..

see..

2009-08-21T14:19:00.001+05:30

It is at times best to ignore facts/ truth even if it is staring right at your face..

strange..

2009-07-10T16:16:00.002+05:30

It strangely seems strange to behave like a stranger with somebody you've known so well..

thought..

2009-06-29T16:45:00.001+05:30

She values some people and their opinions more than anything and wonders if the same applies for them..

anticipation..

2009-06-12T12:53:00.002+05:30

At times, even the tiniest of hopes, when diminshed can make a big difference..

philanthrophy..

2009-05-29T15:34:00.002+05:30

She hopes that it was fun in all, not just for her..

intolerable..

2009-04-29T13:19:00.002+05:30

Confusion, ego, desperation, restlessness and the waiting..
Its all making her so dizzy!!

termination..

2009-03-25T16:54:00.002+05:30

All friendships come with an expiry date: how aptly said!!

diffused..

2009-03-16T14:37:00.002+05:30

Like most of her good times,
this one too was stained by a dark spot..

smiles..

2009-03-04T14:20:00.000+05:30

She thanks her stars:
She's got them for life to cover up for her!!

saturate..

2009-02-23T16:07:00.003+05:30

And the clocks keeps ticking faster than ever..
Is this what her complete life would boil down to..

defination..

2008-12-11T00:14:00.002+05:30

In this not-so-perfect life of her's, she doesn't mind a little change..

abyss..

2008-11-09T23:34:00.001+05:30

So it all withered into nothing..

rewind..

2008-10-01T16:14:00.001+05:30

Its often wished that she was younger, with less of adult problems/ discussions/ feelings to deal with..

again..

2008-09-03T12:40:00.003+05:30

She can virtually see her life completing one of the few circles, she'd rather have a different ending..
Or does she..

wierd..

2008-08-29T19:59:00.003+05:30

The importance of flow, movement or any kind of action is more than recognised right now..
At times the direction of the movement becomes irrelevant..

substitutes..

2008-07-16T13:11:00.003+05:30

It is said that God made Moms beacuse he couldn't be present everywhere..
Its forgotten that Mom made sisters when she couldn't be present everywhere..

She got a mom and two sisters!!

questioning..

2008-07-02T17:31:00.003+05:30

Intelligence, wit and humour usually come along with a bit of eccentricity..
She wonders why??

passage..

2008-06-30T10:08:00.002+05:30

There is a moment/memory in each of our lives that makes one see through all the bad days, gives hope, helps you hang on..
She believes she got hers.

trap..

2008-06-25T13:13:00.003+05:30

Bieng in the prensence of intelligent, witty people is enthralling..
Its easy getting addicted to their kinds.

soaring..

2008-06-23T18:29:00.003+05:30

You lose that tiny ounce of respect you had for someone and it sets you free!!

bunch..

2008-06-11T12:52:00.003+05:30

Surprise, happiness, joy, anger, confusion, irritation, love, longing, choosing, excitement, nervousness, lost, relieve, biwilderment, sympathy...
And thats all that the last week showed her!!

high..

2008-05-28T19:30:00.002+05:30

Giving is the most rewarding feeling at times,
Especially when its to someone you love the most!!

rewind..

2008-05-07T15:37:00.002+05:30

Its been playing in her mind, again and again, nonstop since she saw that movie..
She likes that song, pretty apt too!!

momentarily..

2008-04-28T19:22:00.003+05:30

The wait isn't likely to end soon..
And when it does, the very end will have no meaning, nothing consequential.

Atleast that's what she hopes for!!

trance..

2008-04-16T11:25:00.002+05:30

The reality had a dream-like feel to it,
Only if she could hold on to it just a little while longer..

stumbling..

2008-04-09T10:16:00.001+05:30

People called her confused, not knowing what she wants,
For her its growing up, discovering what she wants..

mixed emotions..

2008-03-26T12:38:00.001+05:30

..is what she's going through and its all so confusing!!

bliss..

2008-03-24T15:07:00.002+05:30

Does ignoring a fact consistently, for a long period of time help one accept reality?

complexities..

2008-03-19T17:17:00.004+05:30

Why is it so difficult to do the right thing, come out with the truth, face reality, explain the obvious, be practical, accept the facts, move on..

Would they??

blurred..

2008-03-12T12:24:00.005+05:30

Que sera sera
Whatever will be, will be,
The future's not ours to see,
Que sera sera,
What will be, will be..

Everything pretty much is left to detiny.

vacillating...

2008-03-03T14:58:00.002+05:30

The feeling was sad and wistful, yet a feeling of contentment, a happiness enveloped her..
Was it a dream or a nightmare that woke her up this morning??

pretensions..

2008-02-29T12:16:00.002+05:30

The helpness she felt was overpowering..
She couldn't cry, laugh, be sad or happy,
Or the excess of emotion would be noticed!!

Its hard pretending at times..

mirror..

2008-02-20T12:03:00.003+05:30

They often want others to be a reflection of their own personalities..
But are even manifestations that similar??

fantasy..

2008-02-11T12:33:00.000+05:30

Can she go back in time and undo mistakes??
Could she say sorry without any words, gestures??
Can she go back in that moment and behave more mature??
Can she make someone understand what they mean and know that they know??

And she begins talking crap again!!

dreaming..

2008-02-01T14:45:00.000+05:30

It is said that the best things in life are seen with eyes closed..
She shall sleep with that thought tonight..

to and fro..

2008-01-22T11:24:00.000+05:30

A juxtaposition of feelings,
Of wanting the time to fly, change to happen.

And then the thought of people going away,
So soon, not yet..

Only if people would stay constant and not time..

praying..

2008-01-21T18:50:00.000+05:30

Please please please please..
She so wishes for it to happen!!

enough..

2008-01-14T18:34:00.000+05:30

Fear, loneliness, a sudden pain clouded her heart, mind and soul..
Would it EVER go away..

She so wished..

confession..

2008-01-09T11:26:00.000+05:30

An affirmation of the known,
A reflected genuinity for once,
Trust and friendship..

She for once "believed"..
..or wanted to.

hope..

2008-01-07T10:26:00.000+05:30

She wished she could stop hoping..
..hoping for "the signs" which probably would never show.

But an eternal optimist that she was..

summary..

2008-01-03T14:20:00.000+05:30

"Ajeeb daastan hai ye,
Kahan shuru kahan khatam,
Ye manzilein hain kaun si,
Na woh samajh sake na hum.."

Pretty much defines the current state of her life..

stars..

2008-01-02T10:14:00.000+05:30

The aircraft landed to the glittering city lights..
..like stars on earth..

She was awestruck by the beauty everytime,
Only this time she knew the lights in her own life shone better.